I Will Follow You

Evening Devotion

Psalm 37:vs 4-6

Delight yourself in the Lord

And He shall give you the desires of your heart

Commit your way  to the Lord

Trust also in Him

And he shall bring it to pass

He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light

And justice as the noonday

I Will Follow You

Lord You have convinced me, that I need to start again

Taking all the lessons learned, I will follow You my friend

You never have abandoned  me, You caught my every tear

And when I thought the end was near, you whispered child please don’t fear

For you are still my daughter no matter what you do and say

I’ve written my name upon your heart and there it will always stay

Regardless of your performance I didn’t come to judge

I want just to love you, I never hold a grudge

So let go of your anger, let not bitterness take hold

And I will restore you to my church, I’ll return you to the fold

There will still be trials but the holy spirit will be there

For you felt my holy breath ,in the rushing of the wind I brought to bear

Now that you trust me I can help you build a better life

Full of  my goodness I will lead you to the light

I will fight your battles I will be your sight

And all that you’ve been through, I will use it all

To help you minister to others  no matter what their  port of call

Keep your heart wide open, full of compassion for the broken

And I will bring to pass a life full of joy, for you’re the one I ‘ve chosen

Drown Proofing

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Drown Proofing with God

I slowly sink

He lifts me up

I slowly sink

He lifts me up

I slowly sink

He lifts me up

Isaiah 66:13

As a mother comforts her child,

 So I will comfort you

Just keep swimming but let God be your Life Saver

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Morning Devotion

I have had the biopsy procedure done last Friday and it will be three weeks untill I get the results. Pressure that comes with my job has taken a lot of my energy away as I worry about the future. Something we are not supposed to do because our heavenly father always looks out for us and knows what we need. Still sometimes I can’t help myself and I pray he will forgive me for my lack of trust.  I will continue with my training of Riley, she has gotten so big and I will post more pictures soon.

 

Morning Prayer

Lord you know my challenges that comes with every passing day

So as I  lift my hands to worship You, give me the courage to obey

Help me to remember Your promises and open my heart to You

Let others see You, through me today ,in everything I do

 

Take away the pain and bitterness that life sometimes brings

Help me to thank You always and help my heart to sing

As my voice shouts out Your praises, fill my soul with Your love

And help me avoid the pitfalls while You guide me from above

 

If I had just one thing to leave behind when You come to take me home

I want to leave the love of Christ, that lives on in every place I roamed

Because you sent me as Your messenger so all the world could see

Your love for all the people no matter where they are or where they flee

 

They will always be Your children whether near or far

Even if they are good or bad or they don’t know who they are

And as a loving Father he does not require that we fix

The brokeness inside us from the wounds that life inflicts

 

Instead He offers mercy and a second chance to live your life renewed

As he wipes away every tear and fills your heart with love so true

With tenderness and longing He calls us all to come and be his sheep

As the great Shepherd He invites us to discover his love is all we seek

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My Father’s Eyes

My world was a strange one when I was just a lass

Full of pain and struggle and I wasn’t sure I ‘d last

But the Lord gave me a father different from the rest

He found the joy in everything making trying times events

No hospital room could contain us, the walls would fade away

Into dark mysterious jungles where we would hunt tigers through the day

With no limit to imagination, there was no place we could not go

With every story written pain was conquered and disease   laid low

At the time I didn’t know it when I looked into my father’s eyes

But he was teaching me how to dream showing me how to fly

By trusting in my father and following his lead

He was preparing me to meet my Savior he was planting an important seed

He must have known there would be trials that would take me far from him

Tough times that would make me search and leave me hanging on a limb

So far out on the cliff I would call out for my Lord

Knowing daddy couldn’t help me but through my heavenly Father I would be restored

And with all the stories written and adventures that would ease the pain

He taught me how to use my mind and words for my Lord’s good gain

Using my imagination that was cultivated with his love

I try to use all my words to point to my Savior up above

Hoping that one day my words will point the way for someone who is lost

toward perfect love and mercy that was gifted on a cross

 

 

 

 

 

 

Who could thank the Lord

As I mentioned in the last blog I am now off Lyrica and the Lord was with me and made this change easier for me to do because I know that he is always there and I can call upon his strength. In stead of letting panic set when at times I felt weird. I was able to talk with him in prayer and work through it. Having such a powerful Allie is such a privilege. I am nervous about going back to work but as a good friend told me this morning don’t worry the Lord goes with you and I say a big Amen to that. Right now I am putting my mind back into fighting these diseases instead of giving up. The Lord has not given us a spirit of timidity but a spirit of power love and a sound mind. This means he has already given me the tools to complete any job he brings my way. My only job is not to get distracted and focus on Him and His word and believe it.

 

 

Who could thank the Lord

Who could thank the Lord above for everything He does

The words you’d need just would not come, there would not be enough applause

To adequately thank him for all his love and care

For keeping me out of harms way in a world that is not fair

And despite my feeble attempt to follow Him, I often do get lost

Somehow I forget that I’m the sheep and the Great Shepherd is the boss

But always he calls back to me, so often ,I now know his voice

Tenderly he crones to me and makes my heart rejoice

And His hands they stand me up again ready to deploy

On any errand he would have me do, I want so much to please

Trying to trust Him honestly when I can’t see the forest from the tree’s

But still he is always faithful, no matter what my state of mind

And in this world he always hold me untill the end of time

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On the days that I hurt the most

Not feeling so good today my fibromyalgia is flaring up and everything hurts so I will take it easy. I get so frustrated when I try to be active re housework, a little gardening etc and my body just won’t cooperate. It drives me crazy sometimes! But I do love to write poetry,  on days when I am not feeling well I love to study the bible and write. I find it so relaxing. So even in pain there is joy to be found.

On the days that I hurt the most

I find the time to praise and boast

About the tender place I consider my retreat,

In which I praise my Heavenly Host

The truth that is written in my Lord’s own heart, is the wing that shelters me

I am humbled as His love washes over me and gives me eyes to see

That even when times are tough and it seems like the pain will never end

Hard times won’t last for ever and joy is just around the bend

Hidden in the Lord’s promises is a new life custom-made for me

Where pain and strife don’t exist and happiness just won’t let me be

In this world tears, sickness and death disappear, never to be seen again

And fear has gone forever and peace and love transcend

Blocking out all anger, hate and evil, Oh what a glorious day

I get lost thinking about the place the Lord has made for me and all that I will do and say

As I behold the city that is made of gold and the river of life that leads the way

Past the trees of life and the fruit they bear to the throne of mighty God

Where I will bend my knees and bow my head, while I listen to the angels sing aloud

 

 

 

On Dark Days

 

It’s a quiet Sunday morning. Jim is off working at some car show and it is too hard for me to breathe in this humid weather so I stayed home from church to worship on my own. I am still fighting kidney stones lodged in my left kidney but this week I have had pain in my right kidney as well. But for now my body is quiet and peaceful as I set my mind upon the Lord and all he gives me. Sometimes its easy to focus on what is wrong but when that happens I often forget about all the blessings the Lord has given me and is still giving to me. His love never stops, even when I can’t understand why dark days occur the Lord will use all of it in a way that will glorify Him.

Romans 8:28

We know that all things work together for good

for all who love God, who are called according to his purpose.

 

On Dark Days

Looking out my window the wonders do I see

Your fingerprints on everything from the ground up to the trees

I hear You calling me, like the whistling of the birds

That cause me to look  into the heavens, ignoring all that has occurred

 

You have my captured my attention all my woes are far behind

As I enjoy all You’ve created at my front door to find

Even as I am speaking, I see storm clouds pushing in, chasing out the sun

But I hear You reminding me not to come undone

 

For You O’Lord have taken charge of all that is to come and all that will ever be

I don’t have to worry cause Your love will carry me

Through all the things I cannot face and all the pain I feel

I feel Your hand upon my life and I know that you are real

 

And You are out there working good on my behalf of what the world intends for evil

This promise to me lifts my heart and makes me feel so gleeful

That such a wonderous Lord like You would do this just for me

renews my hope and gives me strength to endure what will be

 

 

 

 

 

 

Through Day and Night

I have  been out of the hospital for about a week after my lungs became inflamed with a respiratory flu. I thought I was doing pretty good but suddenly I am having a really bad day. I am having non stop hot flashes and sweats from the steroids which is unpleasant but after feeling really shaky and sick I checked my blood levels because steroids can cause you to become diabetic. I was shocked to see my blood sugar levels at 17 so I have started back on diabetes medication to see if I can bring it down. My doctor has broken her leg in whistler so I am trying to quarter back this untill she is able to fly back to Keswick and resume her practice. In times when I feel so sick I am also so grateful to have my Lord and Savior to talk to and share the load with. Just to have the privilege to pray is a joy and blessing. No matter how dark it gets Jesus will always be the light that the darkness can never put out.

John 1:5

The light shines on through the darkness

and the darkness has never put it out.

Through Day and Night

Whether it is day or night You are always there for me

Through rain or shine or stormy sea’s it’s you love that sets me free

Even if my body is in bondage and nothing is working right

You gentle hand soothes my soul and takes away my fright

Because you’re not the status quo and your power can’t be measured

By any type of man-made tool I am awed at  your mercy love and splendor

I amazed at how you love me and you seek to light my path

To drive away the darkness while holding back your wrath

Because once again I have strayed from you as soon as you bid me follow

But in a great display of forgiveness you never let me wallow

In all my despair and self-pity for all the things that I do wrong

Instead you help to stand me up and teach me to sing a new song

One that tells of your wonderous mercy  that always usher’s in the light

While putting out the darkness and transforming me with your love and might

I am very happy to report that in the time it took to write this and talk to the Lord my sweats have finally stopped for the first time today. I am always amazed how praising Jesus always makes me feel better.

The Night Watch

When I remember You on my bed , I

Meditate on You in the night watches.

Because You have been my help, therefore

In the shadow of Your wings  I will rejoice

My soul follows close behind you; Your right

Hands uphold me

Psalm 63:6-8

Anybody who is fighting any kind of chronic illness knows that your symptoms always seem worse at night. I think that’s when I feel most vulnerable. The pain and the horrible sweats and pressure In my chest build up and I don’t want to wake my husband because he needs his sleep. Who I really should  turn to is the Lord.  But I am embarrassed to say that a lot of times I forget that he is available twenty four  seven ready  and wanting to share any burdens I can’t handle. In the times that I can quiet myself and pray, physically I always feel better when I talk  to the Lord. Somehow he takes the edge off the pain or removes it entirely but the best part is I am never alone when I invite him in to help.

The Night Watch

Where do the minutes go as the night slips toward the dawn

When I am all alone, overwhelmed by what I face, how I’d love to sing a new song

I am calling for You Lord in the midst of this storm

To come and take the night watch so I can be transformed

I talk to you about my heavy load you always understand

You offer me warm comfort as you hold me In your hand

Sheltered by your loving wings, You whisper trust in me

And I will show you how to live in Me, in that you can believe

Don’t worry for your future I firmly hold today

We will take each step together and I will show the way

And somewhere between night and dawn the Lord has rocked me back to sleep

Ready to face a new day because his grace runs so very deep

Disease

Once again I have caught another respiratory flu that has inflamed my lungs. This is the second  winter in a row that a flu virus has taken hold of me despite taking the recommended precautions and flu shots. This time was a little more scary as it took almost two weeks of hospital visits to get me  and my lungs on the road to recovery.  But despite the intense fear that comes with not being able to breathe I also have the support of a great and awesome God that knew how to step in and comfort me and encourage me when I am in a very dark place. He is my faithful Shepherd that always shines His light and leads me home. I thank God that I am one of his sheep and I do hear His voice that comes calling for me.

 

 

Psalm 46:10

Be still and know that I am God:

I will be exalted among the nations

I will be exalted in the earth

 

Exodus 15:13

In your unfailing love you will lead the people you

have redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your

holy dwelling

 

Disease

In the midst of this chaos I lose sight of You and I am afraid

That the constant pressure to conform to this world, will win the day

That I will have to give up my dreams because of poor health

Disease has come calling, with great cunning and great stealth

My fight is desperate and it takes my breath away, I feel faint

Engulfing heat rushes over me, swallowing up your soul weary saint

I hear my ragged breathing search for a taste of cool clean air

Panic wells up, as the pain punches through, it’s getting harder to bare

And for a minute I forget, I am still struggling for air

Than a whisper is heard, be still and know I am God, I am here

This too will pass  my child ,you have nothing here to fear

Focus on me so I can take away this burden

My love is constant in this you can be certain

Trust my love through the pain and my healing you’ll gain

Know I’ll never leave you and you don’t fight alone

I go before you, I’ll lead you home

No dreams have to be surrendered if your living life through me

For with God nothing is impossible, even chronic disease