And I have now changed over medications and I am lyrica free in this journey. Next step is to wean off steroids which is always very difficult but will be made worse because I have to go back to work. I can no longer afford to take anymore time off or I will lose my farm. I have two weeks left to get used to the new medicine before I start back to work . Constant nausea continues because the steroids have pushed my blood sugars to 19 so I have to take metformin which upsets my stomach and bowel. This week I will get my pneumonia vaccine and then follow-up with the surgeon who did my emergency kidney stone operation. I know I still have one kidney stone stuck in my left kidney and I have to follow-up with the surgeon to see if he was able to do analysis on the stone he had taken out so we can determine the cause of them. I was going to see fibromyalgia specialist for special testing but I will have to scrap that because i won’t be able to get time off for doctor appts once I go back. Lord you know what Jim and I are up against and we are trusting in you to help us through. Thanks for helping me find homes for the 12 orphaned kittens whose mothers were killed by coyotes your providence is just in time as usual.
Since I started steroids a week ago for my breathing the inflammation in my legs cleared up and I could finally move around like I used to but today brought another frank realization this would be a small calm in the midst of a bigger battle to get healthy.
Today was the first day I would start weaning off steroids which always makes me feel physically sick but the steroids also make me diabetic which caused my blood sugars to soar to 19 which made me feel worse.
I am on day three of trying to come off lyrica on to another nerve pain medicine and tonight I have to drop down another level lets hope I have a pain-free night
Oh Lord I am so happy your here with me always throughout my life
To share in all that this life brings the joy the peace the strife
Your loving hand that holds me is the only reason I still try
Knowing that your unwavering love will always get me by.
Lord I am still here, waiting for Your word
Meditating on Your goodness as I wait for the tide to turn
Away from all this hopelessness that will lead me to Your light
I was never more protected as You lead me in the fight
Lord it isn’t easy waiting here for You
Even though You go out before me and do the things that I can’t do
I know you feel my pain and still your mercy reigns
As I recall all your promises and the hope that they contain
Lord I am still waiting for You to work Your will
While You bare all my burdens I will struggle up this hill
And when I reach the summit, I will look behind
To see you carried me through the darkness, you were with me all the time
The hot weather is now upon us and I have been in the emergency dept twice this week but we now have new air condition units in the house so I hope to make it through this weekend with no trips to the emerg. I have made the decision to get off lyrica and try another medication to help with nerve pain so I can lose weight, not that you will notice for quite a while because I am back on steroids for breathing. On top of this I am already producing kidney stones in both kidneys, I hoped the kidney operation on Mother’s day would stop them but I guess not, on top of everything else the doctor thinks Jim might have contracted lyme disease after being bitten by a tick last week and we are awaiting conformation from blood tests. Sometime it is really hard for me to see God’s plan in this but I know he holds Jim and I in his hand so I will be thankful in all allows and leave the worry to him
We are having coyote’s’ hunting right at the back of our barn they have wiped out most of the cats on the property forcing me to take in 12 young kittens whose mothers were killed. I am working like crazy to get them ready for new homes and I am hoping some cat rescue agencies will help me out with this once again I prayed in advance for God to open up the doors so these kittens can find forever homes in safe environments. I have always believed that God has left us caretakers of the earth and all creatures on it and he sees all of His creation, man included as being precious in His sight.
Not feeling so good today my fibromyalgia is flaring up and everything hurts so I will take it easy. I get so frustrated when I try to be active re housework, a little gardening etc and my body just won’t cooperate. It drives me crazy sometimes! But I do love to write poetry, on days when I am not feeling well I love to study the bible and write. I find it so relaxing. So even in pain there is joy to be found.
On the days that I hurt the most
I find the time to praise and boast
About the tender place I consider my retreat,
In which I praise my Heavenly Host
The truth that is written in my Lord’s own heart, is the wing that shelters me
I am humbled as His love washes over me and gives me eyes to see
That even when times are tough and it seems like the pain will never end
Hard times won’t last for ever and joy is just around the bend
Hidden in the Lord’s promises is a new life custom-made for me
Where pain and strife don’t exist and happiness just won’t let me be
In this world tears, sickness and death disappear, never to be seen again
And fear has gone forever and peace and love transcend
Blocking out all anger, hate and evil, Oh what a glorious day
I get lost thinking about the place the Lord has made for me and all that I will do and say
As I behold the city that is made of gold and the river of life that leads the way
Past the trees of life and the fruit they bear to the throne of mighty God
Where I will bend my knees and bow my head, while I listen to the angels sing aloud